6 degrees of COVID-19

You know that 6 degrees of Kevin Bacon game that used to be a thing? I feel like we are doing that now but with COVID-19. Six degrees of COVID-19. I know someone who has it and I went through a list - have I seen them in 14 days - no - do I know someone who has and then I have seen - who knows. I feel like I should have one of those murder boards with red and white string in my bedroom. Trying to rationalize the unrational.


How do we cope with this? Pandemic (Pan makes me think of a elvish boy
playing the flute) demic is scary like epidemic, academic(haha), or
our current pandemic. 

I have tied this pandemic up in chains and
thrown him in the spare closet of my mind where I keep the things I
don't want to look at too closely. So far so good. However, to be fair
I am medicated for my anxiety and my meds are currently working. I had
a few bad moments before I chained the pandemic and threw it in the
closet but since then I've been looking at the positive. Like Mr.
Rogers said - look for the good.
I mean his quote was better and I could look it up but why don't you?
It's more fun that way - leave the reader guessing they say. Who this
mysterious they is I'm not sure - again feel free to look it up.

Sometimes I think the reason I'm good at things is because I have
taken discrete Googling and made it an art form. Oh you don't know the
answer? By the time you've finished asking I've googled it and can
recite it to you as though I've always known.
I'm so blessed and lucky to still be working. But like all those who
are working (I think - I can't pretend to know what everyone is
thinking) it's hard to focus. There is this thing lurking in the
blackness behind my consciousness. Someone I know just got COVID-19. I
have to think back to all my encounters with everyone over the last 2
weeks. What if I am a carrier? What if someone I know is? It's too big
to think of - back in the closet stop sneaking out like a kid wanting
a bedtime snack. Then back to work - semi new routine. I built a desk
in my bedroom and I actually love it.

I'm an introvert and all this not peopling is making me feel amazing.
I worry I'll draw into isolation and by the time the social distancing
is over I won't know how to converse anymore. I'll be in mental
distancing - how long until that will go away? Will it? It is so nice
to say no thank you I won't come to a random child's birthday party -
pandemic. Sorry can't come over - pandemic. It's an amazing excuse. I
do feel horrible about using it as an excuse because people are dying
but it is a spectacular one.